"Stike up the band and make the fireflies dance."

Hahahaha I had lots to blog about today, or so I thought. Oh well, I shall continue later after I get all thoughts all sorted out in this messed up head.

Okay, so I've been thinking... not exactly about anyone in particular these few days but about iPod Touch! Initially I wanted to get iPod Nano, because they come in so many different colours, and I especially like that Red™ one.  But my stupid sister and her stupid boyfriend and basically just about everyone else tells me to just get iPod TOUCH. Well, not that I really mind, but it's just that it doesn't exactly come in bright colours (there's like only silver/black/whatever you call it and I don't like dull colours) and it's bigger and heavier. But after much consideration, I think I'm just going to allow myself to be influenced and get iPod Touch because of it's many more functions and the little price difference. Plus, iPod Touch looks cooler. I don't really care if it's overrated or not, hahahaha.

I don't know if it's just me having issues with other people, or they are seriously the ones who are being annoying. Like, we were supposed  to go for the IT Fair today (they were the ones who wanted to go today by the way) and I was already so looking forward to getting my iPod. And then, they were the ones to cancel today's plan without even telling us. I think that's like freaking retarded. Yeah, so I didn't get to get my iPod Touch today, and I have to go get it tomorrow. And I can't just wait for Black Friday to come to compare prices because by then the IT Fair would already have ended. Oh I hate waiting.

I hate waiting, and I hate not knowing what to do. My dad is seriously considering sending me to the States for university, but I don't exactly feel like going. Partly because of that stupid assface whom I don't see quite as often now. And it's precisely because of this (me not seeing Stranger quite as often) that I'm actually worried. I'm not sure if "worried" is the right word to use here, but that's just the feeling. I'm worried about what will happen before the 3rd when I won't go down anymore. Because by then, it'll be too late to do anything anymore. It's so overwhelming. And he's not helping to improve the situation. Shawn says to just wait. But I can't do just that.; there ain't anymore time for me. But then again, there's no f*ing thing I can do.

I don't want to be nothing more than a passerby in Stranger's life.

I need an escape. iPod Touch, help!

"Candy."

有的人说不清哪里好，
但就是谁都替代不了。

"Quote: Dear Douchebag,"

Oh! And  I really like the expression of this blogger

"So let me dumb it down to your level because I'm all out of patience."
"The fact that you ignored what I said and heard what you wanted to hear is a reflection on your blindness."
"I pushed you away because you pryed into my life instead of being invited."
"Go be with someone that would love you, for you. In other words, go fuck yourself."

"Flip, or flop?"

Yesterday I played flip or flop again. And I did it correctly, except for the hooking of the little finger, but it doesn't really matter, I guess. Hahahaha.
Everytime I play flip or flop, I always make the same wish. and it had better come true. It was supposed to come true.
Because all I need is just one chance. Just one chance.

I'm getting from bad to worse, getting more unsympathetic. I probably have been this way all along. I can't put myself in the shoes of others, so I never know what to say. Or rather, I don't really want to bother, because I've got my own fair share of troubles. So I'm actually finding it quite a chore having to say stuff that I don't exactly mean because I don't sincerely care? Oh my god. My life is getting so screwed up.

My results are bad, but because prelims are just over, I have got absolutely no mood to start studying again. SO FRUSTRATING. Gotta go sleep now, tomorrow will be a better day.
Because I'm one day closer to seeing you.

"Maybe."

And maybe someday we will meet,
And maybe talk, and not just speak.
Today I wached the boats moving through the harbour, walking on water.

Keep me in your thoughts, don't disappear.