"Idk= I Don't Know."

Why is it that everytime I think I want something, and after I've gone ahead to do it, I don't know where to go from there anymore. I thought going ahead to do it would be enough, but it doesn't turn out to be that way. Even though I know it's not enough, I don't know what I want or what to do after that. Life's a big question mark isn't it? It's a just big big question mark, followed by many endless more.
You've left me clueless.

"The Past."

"Does the past even matter?"
"I guess so."
"Why does the past matter?"
"Well, it's only with the past that the present makes sense."

你编织的感觉难以捉摸，
你比我的梦境还困惑。
我沉迷的感动与你不同，
我的了解让我自有。

"Stike up the band and make the fireflies dance."

Hahahaha I had lots to blog about today, or so I thought. Oh well, I shall continue later after I get all thoughts all sorted out in this messed up head.

Okay, so I've been thinking... not exactly about anyone in particular these few days but about iPod Touch! Initially I wanted to get iPod Nano, because they come in so many different colours, and I especially like that Red™ one.  But my stupid sister and her stupid boyfriend and basically just about everyone else tells me to just get iPod TOUCH. Well, not that I really mind, but it's just that it doesn't exactly come in bright colours (there's like only silver/black/whatever you call it and I don't like dull colours) and it's bigger and heavier. But after much consideration, I think I'm just going to allow myself to be influenced and get iPod Touch because of it's many more functions and the little price difference. Plus, iPod Touch looks cooler. I don't really care if it's overrated or not, hahahaha.

I don't know if it's just me having issues with other people, or they are seriously the ones who are being annoying. Like, we were supposed  to go for the IT Fair today (they were the ones who wanted to go today by the way) and I was already so looking forward to getting my iPod. And then, they were the ones to cancel today's plan without even telling us. I think that's like freaking retarded. Yeah, so I didn't get to get my iPod Touch today, and I have to go get it tomorrow. And I can't just wait for Black Friday to come to compare prices because by then the IT Fair would already have ended. Oh I hate waiting.

I hate waiting, and I hate not knowing what to do. My dad is seriously considering sending me to the States for university, but I don't exactly feel like going. Partly because of that stupid assface whom I don't see quite as often now. And it's precisely because of this (me not seeing Stranger quite as often) that I'm actually worried. I'm not sure if "worried" is the right word to use here, but that's just the feeling. I'm worried about what will happen before the 3rd when I won't go down anymore. Because by then, it'll be too late to do anything anymore. It's so overwhelming. And he's not helping to improve the situation. Shawn says to just wait. But I can't do just that.; there ain't anymore time for me. But then again, there's no f*ing thing I can do.

I don't want to be nothing more than a passerby in Stranger's life.

I need an escape. iPod Touch, help!

"Candy."

有的人说不清哪里好，
但就是谁都替代不了。

"Quote: Dear Douchebag,"

Oh! And  I really like the expression of this blogger

"So let me dumb it down to your level because I'm all out of patience."
"The fact that you ignored what I said and heard what you wanted to hear is a reflection on your blindness."
"I pushed you away because you pryed into my life instead of being invited."
"Go be with someone that would love you, for you. In other words, go fuck yourself."